‘Lucidity.’
I don’t quite know how to describe this. For some time my mind has felt “closed”. Constantly preoccupied. I have been conscious of it when it’s happening which makes it all the more frustrating.
But today, I feel free. Free and present and open. Like the walls of a cage have come down; like the constant weighty fog of distant mind has withdrawn for a moment.
Perhaps it is inspiration, perhaps I am remembering what I miss, perhaps it is the absence of social media and the chosen silence of my phone. Maybe it is all of the above. And maybe it is the Holy Spirit reawakening inside of me because a fissure in my stubbornness has emerged. Oh God, I hope that is true.
I could weep.