I want to be like her but I feel completely incapable. She is humble, expecting nothing; I am prideful, expecting everything without much sacrifice on my side. She is grateful; I am dissatisfied. She is hard-working; I am lazy and resentful of the work I must do. She takes risks; I want to stay safe and comfortable. She praises God; I question and ignore Him.
God, what am I to do? I feel stuck and trapped, confused and discouraged. It’s no wonder I feel lost, sad and alone, lingering in darkness. I haven’t spent real time with you for a while. I haven’t sought you or trusted you or obeyed you with joy, seeking to turn or grow or serve with my whole heart. I’ve expected everything with a self-serving, self-centeredness and did not even notice. I am tired of my kingdom. It’s worthless and brings me no joy.
Undertaking the translation of music and art into graphic design for the good of people and the beautification of things seen and unseen